Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Her Walls Came Down

The phone rang one Sunday morning. The familiar voice of my best friend on the other end.

I could hear the tears in her voice, she wasn't one to easily cry, but she was only human and she had those moments as we all do.

"I wanted to walk into service for Easter Sunday, I really did." Melissa said.

"It doesn't matter how you got there, you were there Melissa, that's what the Lord saw." I said offering her the encouragement she so often offered me.

Mimmi was a strong one, but she would be the first to tell you she was only human, she had her battles, she struggled with questions. I asked the same questions.

I saw Mimmi's strong side, but I was one of the few who also saw her more vulnerable side. She would share with me things she did not share with many. Told me that I was the Sister of her heart, and her Sister in Christ, that stuck even after she was called home to Jesus.

Mimmi and I talked often on the phone and we wrote as often as we could, often twelve page letters. She wrote about how God revealed himself in the storms of his life, and she always told me how grateful she was that the Lord had saw it fit to bring us together. We could laugh together, and cry together.

Several years before I had met her, I had written a story about an amputee, a woman like her who had lost her leg, I can't remember the details of the story now, but I remember Melissa's reaction.

"I don't know how you did it, but you managed to capture what I felt exactly." Melissa said, wiping tears from her eyes. I hated that I made her cry, but she assured me it was a good thing, that the story had so deeply resonated with her.

Mimmi generally was not one who wore her emotions on her sleeves, she wore them inwardly to a fault sometimes, and she went through things that I will not talk about, because just thinking about its too painful, but she and I could open up to one another, and I was more than grateful for that.

I knew the Lord's hand was in it when her walls came down, and I saw Mimmi's whole self.

Mimmi the nickname Mikey and I had dubbed her, and only we were allowed to call her.

Mimmi whose now free and whole with Jesus, who is in the arms of our loving Father…


Saturday, May 15, 2010

• Possible Author Photo For Buried Truths

Buried truths the third in the Marishka Tanya Alexei series is on its way to publication, this series will probably be the last of the books published with my current publisher and look for a different one. I want to finish this series out and the book I am currently working on outside of the series.

I have one photo that may work for my Author photo, at least one that I like

As I get some more possible photos ill share them, but I have got a lot of good feedback on the first one...

In Christs Love


Friday, May 14, 2010

Front Page Love Paige Lee Elliston

Book Two in the Montana Skies series:
Copyright 2006

A drought has crippled the town of Coldwater for the past year and a half. Julie a reporter for the local paper and is trying to help others with her column. She wants to show the affects of what a one and half year drought has done to this community, a community of many ranchers. But in getting to the story, she visits a town bar, that she believes has been serving a minor, but even writing this story can cause her trouble. In the midst of all of this she realizes she is falling in love with the town vet, who supports her.

The story though continues to cause her trouble, especially when the Chief of Police, the very one who is supposed to protect her, tries to hurt her, because he is friends with the bar owner...

Once again Paige Lee Elliston draws me into the characters life, and does a wonderful job of painting a very vivid and clear picture...Another book I highly recomend

Happy Reading!

Michelle R Kidwell

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Book Review: Change of Heart Page Lee Elliston

Copyright 2005
Book One Montana Skies
Megan is on top of the world with a sucessful ranch, a husband that loves her, it seems like she is living the picture perfect life, but when tragedy strikes and her husband dies unexpectedly it feels as if her world is unravelling. She buries herself in the work of her ranch to kind of numb the pain, but eventually she is going to have to face her life, and she will discover that perhaps her heart can love again, when she is faced with two men who like her. Will she love again?
I recomend this book, because though short, at two hundred and thirty pages, it has a lot of good messages in it. Happy Reading!
Michelle R Kidwell

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Transforming Change

What is it about change that so often frightens us? Change does not always represent the bad, but so often we find ourselves fearing change. What is new to us can be overwhelming, but change is a necessary part of life.

In the introduction to Joyce Meyers book The Love Revolution she says this:

"Nothing will change in our lives unless each one of us is willing to change."

We all need to do our parts if we want things to really change. I mean really change not some outward change, but a transforming change that goes from the inside and out.

The moment I gave my Heart to Christ something inside me began to change, the emptiness slowly became filled, and I began to see that the true change occurred when I thought less of my wants and needs and found time to care for others as well. We are of course supposed to take care of ourselves, but we do not have to become totally selfish.

Remember what we learned as children "It is better to give than to receive." I remember that, but living that can be hard at first though in time it gets remarkably easier.

"We shall live for others and learn that wonderful secret that what we gives away come back to us many times over." Joyce Meyers The Love Revolution

Part of our calling as Christians is to share the good news with others, and to serve others as Christ served. We are to preach the good news of course, but we are called to do more than just that.

Luke 4:18-19 (New International Version)

 18"The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
      because he has anointed me
      to preach good news to the poor.
   He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
      and recovery of sight for the blind,
   to release the oppressed,
    19to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."[

Perhaps now more than ever it is important that we help others. We live in a dark and scary times, and his truth, his love needs to come out in the lives we live. As Christians, we cannot continue to sit idly by, doing nothing.
It is time that we make that transforming change.


Hebrews 13:5 (New International Version)

5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,
   "Never will I leave you;
      never will I forsake you."

It is time that we stop letting the things of the world, stop us from living in God's will, we have a choice on how we use these things, and I believe it is time we start using them for his glory…

Michelle R Kidwell



Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Words Can Be A Powerful Weapon and A Healing Gift

"Before saying anything, pass it through three sieves: Is it true? Is it kind? Is it necessary?" ~ Amy Carmichael


Have you ever said anything and immediately wished you could take the words back, or have been hurt by words yourself? Has anyone said something that made you feel like you were two inches tall? I think we all have been the giver of this kind of pain as well as the giver, after all we are all human right? We are going to make mistakes, we are not perfect, that is Christ and Christ alone who is perfect. As humans we are going to make mistakes, we are not going to always say the right thing, but there are times when we can really mess up, when we can look back and realize that we really messed up, we really hurt someone with our words, or someone hurt us.


Some say that actions speak louder than words, and sometimes that can be true, but when words have a negative impact they speak plenty loud enough, and they can really hurt, whenever someone tells you, you are not pretty, you are not smart, or that they simply do not care about you and what you are feeling, then the words speak plenty loud enough.


"Yet we must say something when those who are saying the most, say nothing." Augustine Confessions


For those of us who write we know the power of words, and the same can be said for those of us who read, are very aware of the power of words, we know that words are a gift from the Lord above and that for those of us who are called to write, we are given a very special gift, we are called to write, and it is up to us how we decide to use that gift.


I am sure that some are born to write as trees are born to bear leaves: for these, writing is a necessary mode of their own development. If the impulse to write survives the hope of success, then one is among these. If not, then the impulse was at best only pardonable vanity, and it will certainly disappear when the hope is withdrawn." CS Lewis, Letters from CS Lewis to Arthur Greeves

How are you going to use your words today? Are they going to be a tool to build someone up, or break them down? What do you think Jesus would have you do?



pe is withdrawn. - C.S. Lewis, Letters of C.S. Lewis to Arthur Greeves